Geneseo, Geneseo: We’re Halfway There?

I found myself checking the dates when reading the format of what this blog should be. I then looked at the date, realizing it was halfway through October. Truly where has the time gone so quickly? I swore yesterday I was unpacking my dad’s car in the blaring heat and joking about everything I brought and how it was definitely over the top. Seeing my dad begin to cry as we finished our dinner at Mama Mia’s, (which was well deserved) after ten trips up and down the dorm steps (don’t worry, my waterworks started quickly thereafter). It’s been hard for me to grasp how quickly this place has become my home, especially since I miss my life back home (especially my bed dearly). I guess I never thought that the end of the first semester would come so quickly, but around the time someone will be reading this on word press, it should be around seven to eight weeks! I hope this isn’t coming off as me wishing my time away. I’ve made some of the most amazing friends I believe will be in my life for a long time. I’m so grateful to my parents, who have made this college dream a reality for me.

So far, the classes I have been in are super informative and a joy to partake in. I feel as if many of the education styles during K through twelve had me thinking the college wouldn’t be any better. In all actuality, though, I feel as if I’m finally getting so much enrichment out of learning. I’m taking classes I want to engage in because it’s now so simple to pay attention to topics I enjoy. Furthermore, in college, I’m starting to realize the importance and power knowledge has and how it necessarily doesn’t always have a good grade attached. Though I’m doing very well right now, there have been times when I’m not focused on the letter or number but more looking forward to reading a professor’s response. I appreciate growing my education as a whole while connecting with people who are also passionate about the topics they teach.

Theatre Therapy for Veterans has become one of my favorite classes. I have finished one of the main books, The Theatre of War by Bryan Doerries, and it is something I have suggested to anyone who will listen to me ramble. After reading this book, it’s fascinating to me the new appreciation I grew for the brave service members and veterans of our country. The bit of knowledge I have on Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, the book has helped me take a different look at not only what these courageous people physically put on the line so selflessly but what mental struggles they have to live with on the day-to-day. Alongside the sacrifices their families make as they protect us. The book had me teary-eyed in some sections. It was so well written. Doerries did an incredible job portraying other people’s stories he learned during his tour. It did its part in helping people learn the other side of P.T.S.D. and how frankly debilitating it can be for someone not seeking help. It wretches your heart seeing men and women help others so heroically but show some struggle to help themselves. To understand just how powerful this book is, you need to read it. For anyone who either seeks better knowledge on Theatre and how it relates to Veterans coping with P.T.S.D or just looking for an interesting read you can’t put down, I suggest this one a hundred times over.

As we are heading toward the end of the semester, it is coming a lot quicker than I ever expected. I hope to understand my limitations better. When school started, I was always trying to stay busy, doing homework for some classes due the following month, and it started to make me sour towards homework. I made it ten thousand times more complicated than it had to be. By the end of the semester, I think I’ll (hopefully) learn better time management and how to better pace my time. It doesn’t make me a bad person to take care of myself, and I’m starting to come to terms with that. Going from a highly active life where I was constantly getting something done to hunkering down to do my best at college is an adjustment. Though it’s a change, I like the new skills I’m learning and enjoying this path of getting to know myself better.

Second reflection

Compared to my first year, many things have changed for me. The workload is a lot different than I expected. I’ve always considered myself busy, but sophomore year takes the cake. Last year my latest class ended before 4:30 pm, and now my classes end at 10:30 pm. My time management was challenging this semester. I found it very difficult to have a full day of classes, rehearsals and still have the energy to do homework as well as take care of myself. I want to show the same amount of effort in my general education classes as in my major-based classes, but it is much more complicated than I thought it would be. When I was younger, I never took general education classes seriously in high school, so a liberal arts-style college was a bold choice for me. I have always struggled academically with non-music classes. I always found it easier to memorize a song than it is to study for a test or write an essay. But I wanted to have a well-rounded education no matter the struggle I went through during it.

 My major-based courses are a great way to challenge me. I was never a dancer, so I am glad I’m taking a dance class to help me build technique. I’ve started to improve my dancing, which I am proud of. I am also in “Chamber singers,” and that class keeps me on my toes. It helps me pay attention to detail and gain more confidence in my ability to read music the first time and then sing it. Choir has always been my passion, and I am glad I get the opportunity to experience that again. My professor is demanding, so I feel honored that he trusts me with such beautiful works such as Eric Whitacre and Undine Smith Moore. I adore variety in choral music because it is never all the same Catholic mass music; it can be spiritual or contemporary. Learning new styles of music is very valuable to me as a musician. I am taking a class called Musical Theatre Performance I: Foundations. It is an incredibly daunting course. We are assigned songs we have to perform and work on them in front of the class. It is a very intimate space, so being five feet away from my classmates’ faces singing is naturally very uncomfortable. At first, I was a nervous wreck in this class because everyone could see me, and I could see their reactions as I sang. Over time I got more comfortable with these people and intimate performance spaces. At the beginning of this class, I was assigned a song I didn’t like. I felt the song was easy to sing but hard to understand emotionally. However, as time went on and I worked on this song, I learned not to judge something at first glance or not to hate something because I find it difficult. 

Often, my stubbornness gets in the way of my learning. Once I got to college, it allowed me to learn my own way while doing the same things as other students. In this class, I learned to challenge my thinking and political morality. I was never fully educated on military life and what happens to veterans after they leave their deployment. I have family who are veterans, but that was a part of their life they never talked about. When I read American Tet in class, I was shocked by the reality of veterans living with PTSD. To learn about an experience that is outside of myself was eye-opening. I have always been passionate about integrating theatre and music into therapy and other mental health services. In Theatre of War, they use Greek tragedy as a way for veterans to connect and be seen. It is so powerful to see such an old story remain relevant and meaningful to people. In the book, they explain how they wanted to bring a Greek tragedy to a prison. Naturally, this did not end up going well with the inmates, and I wondered what the expected final product of the performance was. It had me question the morality of prisons and the treatment of the human beings inside of them. Being in a class that constantly challenges my thinking keeps me motivated to learn about other people’s lives and experiences. By the end of the semester, I hope to be more organized and on top of my game. I want to learn the skills to be successful in music and life. 

Halfway mark At Geneseo

 

      Halfway Mark At Geneseo

My experiences here at Geneseo have been going quite well and going pretty much as I expected. I am thrilled  I chose to go to school here. It is crazy to think that my first college semester is already half over, but as expected, time flies. When I first got here, I didn’t know many people, but as time passed, I started to make friends and meet new people. 

In my classes, (most of my classes) are very doable, although two of them are getting intense. These classes include my accounting and my microeconomics because the content is challenging, and I have to start to study harder for the exams, which I am not used to doing. Although, the workload is pretty fair. Especially with all of the free time I have here. I have time to get all of my work done on Thursday then I don’t have any work to do over the weekend, which is nice. But there is lots of room for improvement. This is because I could always put more effort into my classwork. Also, Increasing my study time will always be positive.

 My Theater Therapy for Veterans class is going pretty well so far. I am enjoying the content too. I would have to say this class is justly easy as long as you put in the effort. The workload in this class is small as long as you read and record your thoughts in our journals. It is only the halfway mark, but I am confident  I will be successful in this course. I really enjoy the content in this class because I find it is different from all the other classes I have had. I say this because learning all about veterans from a veteran is extraordinary. It makes it easier to learn about a topic from someone who lived it. Also, many of the readings that we go through are interesting. It is cool to learn about all of this, although I can’t say I can connect or relate to it. It is also interesting that every veteran has a unique story because everyone’s experience differs. Then after war, everyone’s experiences make them feel different ways. Some veterans might have worse PTSD than others.

Lastly, by the end of the semester, I hope to be in a similar spot that I am in now, which is showing up to all of the classes and keeping my grade high and all of my work on time. However, I want to change some of my habits. These habits include my study habits. I want to study more, which would make my test scores higher and my class works higher quality. I would also like to go out of my comfort zone and seek help when I need it. If I take these steps and change these habits, I will be in a great spot by the end of the semester. A similar spot that I am in now. 

The Halfway Point

The halfway point of a journey is the most significant step within the journey; it is the moment in which noticeable progress has been made. The moment in which one can breathe, step back, and acknowledge the growth that has occurred. Reaching my halfway point at Geneseo has been a process that went by so quickly; I can only define it as a blur. There is no sense to how quickly I have been able to weave myself an entirely new life. Not a single aspect of my hometown life has carried through to Geneseo. My friends have entirely new faces, my sleep schedule has been stretched to include more sleep in the morning, and my passion has shifted from theatre to rugby. At the halfway point of the first semester—meaning this is actually a 1/16th check-in over my four years of college—I have forged a new life for myself. This extreme change is not meant to be expressed as a negative event. Rather, the stark contrast between college and high school has vastly improved my mental health. My halfway point is marked with happiness and laughter, and I can only hope that the trend will continue. 

The description of the halfway point of my courses is synonymous with the points of my social life. I have finally won my battle with crippling procrastination and have begun to not only schedule my assignments but commit to them as well. I cannot possibly count the number of times I put off an assignment until the last second or neglected the assignment in its entirety. Procrastination has been my handicap for the past 18 years, which I have finally managed to overcome. This single win has created an incredibly manageable course load; I have yet to find myself overwhelmed and anxiety-ridden. Unfortunately, I have not found most of my courses to be enjoyable. Many of my courses are set in a lecture style, and while I appreciate the approach, I learn more effectively through hands-on and discussion-based instruction. Therefore, I have needed to study longer to keep pace with the flow of information. It has been a difficult adjustment, but I know it will be necessary for my success. Overall, the courses are straightforward but have yet to open themselves up to be truly insightful and enjoyable. 

Although my previous opinions of my courses have been starkly unenjoyable, this class specifically has been just the opposite. I have enjoyed the open conversations that occur on a near daily level, and this is the one class in which I feel I have connected with the professor. The format of this class has been the most convenient for my learning style, and I hope to find similarly arranged courses for future semesters. I have been able to connect deeply with many of the materials used within this course. The chapter “Heracles in Hospice” from The Theater of War by Brian Doerries was particularly compelling. It was exceptionally emotional to see the effects of Greek Tragedy in a setting to which I can relate. My aunt was put in hospice care in 2013, and I never visited her. I was so scared to see how much cancer had changed her kind face, so I didn’t go with the rest of my family to the hospice center. That guilt has lingered with me for over eight years, and it was relieving to have the guilt of losing someone in hospice care be so pronounced in literature. “Heracles in Hospice” lifted a small weight off my shoulders and alerted me that I was not alone, which was a truly refreshing feeling. Theatre Therapy for Veterans has been my favorite course due to its powerful messages, and I hope that I continue to find connections to the literature we read throughout this course. 

By the end of the semester, I expect to have relearned my love for literature. I had forgotten the connections one can make to literature, and this course has pushed me back into reading. Furthermore, I hope that my lack of procrastination continues and equips me with the skills necessary to succeed in the next steps of my education. 

Just Getting started

Don’t procrastinate- the number one lesson displayed through the first half of my semester. Continuing to adjust to new norms of my everyday lifestyle, it’s vital to stay on top of all your work. Free time is hard to come by, but one thing that I’ve learned in my time here so far has been priorities. I recommend completing your schoolwork before going out on weekends; I learned the hard way. Even though it took me some time to understand what comes before a built-in schedule was stitched into my head: class, eat, get work done, eat, more work, sleep, repeat. Overall, the beginning of the first semester has been stressful due to deadlines, routine, and balance. Balance has been the key to enjoying activities outside of school and getting work done. Besides school work, I’ve continued to play club baseball and intramural flag football to keep myself active. Staying active is a crucial part of college life because you can find yourself not participating in any physical activity throughout the day. When you do get lazy, let the “freshman fifteen” motivate you to start moving.

I was shaken when I opened the canvas and saw “Reflection halfway through your first semester at Geneseo” I was shaken. Have we already been here half of the semester? The beginning half of the first semester has flown by. The only issue regarding the approach of the halfway point is midterms. So far, courses haven’t been too much for me to handle. Studying for midterms leads to waves of stress and anxiety. Around this point of the semester, work continues to pile up, allowing each course to take its toll on time. Time management is crucial for completing assignments and studying because time is challenging to come by. My two introductory classes are taking up the majority of my workload: financial accounting and microeconomics. Having assignments due once every week and a quiz (in class)every other week have been at the top of my list. While some courses are boring, and I can barely sit through the lecture, I enjoy coming to this class.

The part I benefit from most is the group discussions. Working in a group setting has always been my strong point because it involves two basic skills: listening and responding. It sounds easy, right? But, most people struggle with taking in the information the other individual is saying. Focus is required to actively listen and respond accordingly. In The Theater of War by Brian Doerries, Prometheus gets put into solitary confinement due to stealing fire and giving it to humans. In prison, Prometheus feels like there’s no way out because the individual is chained up with no escape. In other words, people can have negative responses when they cannot do something based on their circumstances. I could relate to this because in my junior year of high school, I tore my labrum playing baseball and ended up needing surgery that brought my season to a close. Knowing there was nothing I could do about it drove my spirit down. This time was a challenge, but it takes time to consume hardships. The main lesson I received from my injury was to always have a positive mindset.

Where do you expect to be by the end of the semester? Besides the basic answer: I would like to accomplish the “A” to “B” range grades in all my classes. That’s a question that I have no clue how to answer. Some people might have set schedules or goals they want to achieve in the short term.I’m going with the flow and seeing where that takes me. Even though it’s important to have goals, you never know where you will end up. Goals are key to pushing through obstacles that interfere in your everyday life; therefore, there’s something that makes you want to keep fighting.

How i have adjusted to life at college

As we approach the halfway mark of the first semester, I’d like to explain challenges, accomplishments, and topics of interest so far in my classes and social life at Geneseo. So far, the idea of college being exceptionally different from high school has become even more prominent than at the beginning of the semester. Professors have been diving into the material rather than simply going over the basics, as they were previously. As a result, I have developed many study habits, including studying with friends to approach these new and strenuous topics. Socially, I have met many new people in my classes and throughout my living hall. I hope to participate in more campus-run events, as they seem like fun activities to do with friends.

To start, biology class has been my most challenging course , which I was expecting. Even though I use every resource available, many topics remain confusing and complicated; however, when I do understand the topics after ample studying, they turn out to be rather fascinating. One studying trick that has largely helped me is creating a list of questions before I read the chapter and answering them afterward. It’s impressive that so many movements of cells, along with other substances are constantly taking place within our own bodies. By the end of this semester, I hope to understand the basics of biology to prepare me for my following, more complicated biology course.

My second most difficult class is chemistry lab, which I had not expected at the beginning of the semester. Before our labs, we are required to take a pre-lab quiz which includes the formulas, and the ideas that will be on the next lab. These quizzes are much more challenging than I had expected, especially with the time limit placed on them. On the other hand, I enjoy the labs we perform, along with the professor and my classmates. By the end of this semester, I aim to improve my scoring on the quizzes, continue to have fun, and improve my technique during lab procedures.

Next, calculus is my third most difficult class, which I once again did not expect. After taking precalculus in high school, I was particularly nervous about taking this class; however, it seems easier than I thought it would be . Although precalculus was difficult, it has proven to be useful, and SI sessions have helped me to understand the topics presented so far. By the end of this semester, I hope to be prepared for Calculus II, as I will need to complete it to complete the courses required by my major. I also desire to understand logarithms better, as they are a vital aspect of many sciences that I am also required to take.

My fourth most difficult class this semester is Chemistry. At this point, I have understood almost every topic instantly after learning. Those I didn’t understand instantly, I could learn within a few hours. Throughout the rest of this semester, I hope to continue to understand the presented topics and gain a better understanding of the basic principles of chemistry.

My most accessible class this semester is my writing seminar, Therapy for Veterans. There are many readings (it is my only class that is Tuesday and Thursday, so I don’t have another workload to compare it to). However, I am invested in the material and enjoy the class discussions we have. This class is going particularly well for me, and I look forward to attending it. As for the readings, I have still not found any connections to myself. However, I hope to as the semester progresses.

Overall, this semester has been somewhat challenging. Nevertheless, I have learned new study habits to help me succeed. I hope to continue to move in this direction as the semester progresses and continue to participate in campus events to make additional memories with my friends.

Halfway there

Halfway There  

Hi everybody! Marissa again. I am currently about halfway through my first semester at Geneseo. So far, schoolwork and keeping myself happy and healthy has been a wild ride. I never thought I would make it this far, so being here, not only at Geneseo but at my halfway mark through the first semester, is shocking. It is funny how time flies—it feels like last week it was summer. I was swimming with my brother, helping my grandparents restain their pool deck, and working a shift at the ice cream stand. But here I am. Even this far into school, my grandparents text me every day, making the day a little better. I have yet to be completely comfortable with college, but that makes sense because it is a huge change going from a school with forty-four students in my high school graduating class. People who have mostly the same backgrounds and beliefs, to hundreds of people with a range of backgrounds and beliefs. I just did not expect to need so much time to adjust—especially not to the schoolwork, which I am usually particularly good. 

In my few weeks I realized that college courses are nothing like high school classes. On that note, though, college is not as scary as high school teachers make it out to be, and the professors do not disregard the students but take their time to understand if you reach out and let them know if something is going on. My teachers in high school made it seem like all the professors do not take any excuses whatsoever, you are on your own, and the professors do not really care about their students. From my experience in college, I have to say they were wrong. So far, all my professors have been understanding if something important comes up or if you are sick as long as you take the time to contact them— they realize everyone has things that aren’t planned. Often, the professors hold office hours if you are lost so you can talk to them and get extra help if needed, and to me, it seems like the professors do care about their students, or they would not put the time and effort into doing everything in their power to help us. 

Honestly, my classes are going rather well, and I am enjoying most of them. The studying aspect is still new to me, but I am getting better every day. One of my favorite classes so far has been Theater Therapy for Veterans, and I continue to learn about and relate to the content. In Theater Therapy for Veterans, we read “The Theater of War” by Bryan Doerries. At first, I wondered how I could even begin to relate to veterans and their experiences. Even so, I began to see myself relating somewhat to various characters in the tragedies that were being mentioned. It was helpful to realize that none of us are alone in this life— we all have someone who can either relate to us or will listen to us. That being said, I am ecstatic to see if the rest of the readings are something I can relate to on a personal level.  

By the end of this semester, I expect to see myself grow as a person as well as a student. I firmly believe I can choose a major or, at the very least, have an idea of what major interests me the most. I would also prefer to obtain a better sense of time by the end of the semester. Hopefully, with a clear sense of how long I should be spending on homework every night, studying before tests, along with scheduling a time for going to office hours and review sessions, my confidence in academics will rise, and I will grow less anxious at the thought of doing anything other than schoolwork. 

Evolution of a Suny Geneseo Student

Throughout my short time at SUNY Geneseo, I have reflected on my time last year and this year so far. Last year as a new student I was filled with all kinds of feelings, such as being constantly anxious, sometimes confused, but also filled with enjoyment and many fun opportunities and new experiences. This year the emotions and feelings were slightly different. So far it has been filled with much more excitement and joy because I have missed my friends that I made last year. The beginning of the semester has also differed from last year with my courses and what they bring to the table.

My first year wasn’t all that simple. I started off as a business major and immediately hated it because the classes were boring and not very captivating. My second semester  was much better. I started by switching majors to childhood education, and it has been my best decision to date. My classes in childhood education this year have been much more enjoyable than last semester, especially my math classes. While my classes as whole are very interesting and fit to my taste because they are smaller and more captivating, on the flip side they are also very work heavy, which can be challenging at times. This has made me reconsider my studying methods and planning. 

On the topic of planning and studying methods, INTD 105 has helped me tremendously with the readings in class. My favorites so far have been the readings of They say I Say by Gerald Graff and Cathy Birkenstein and The Little Seagull Handbook by Richard Bulluck, Michal Brady, and Francine Weinberg. These readings are so impactful to my learning because they offer information on different writing strategies, exercises, and new ways to learn in general. These readings have helped me with my studying and readings this semester, and I only wish I had them last year. The other readings in this class have been very fascinating and intriguing but haven’t necessarily related to my life and experiences. As time goes on in this course, I expect to be a much more complete, polished writer and reader because this course is heavily rooted in my ability to do those things. I also want to take the skills that I hope to improve on,  and use that to become a better critical thinker. Most importantly I wish to  come out of this course as a better person because there are so many inspirational stories and readings that have made me have a different outlook on life and the struggles people have gone through.  

An Anxious Girl’s Account of Acclimating to the College Life

Well, well, well. Here we are, and here I am, surviving the first half of my first semester at Geneseo. Although every single second here hasn’t been all sunshine and rainbows, I will say that forcing myself out of my comfort zone by moving to Geneseo and attending this college was the best decision I could have made. Before I moved, when I talked to people about attending Geneseo, the conversation was always the same: “Wow! Congrats on going to Geneseo!” To which I would respond, “Yeah! Thank you! I am looking forward to a change.” Perhaps it wasn’t that I was looking forward to the change, as I was more terrified than ever about leaving my whole life behind. Rather, I needed a change. I fear that, had I not left home and simply attended the community college in my hometown (as that was my initial plan before Geneseo), I would have been stuck in my little, familiar town forever. My world was small before coming here; I had the same routine, the same friends, the same activities, the same mindset, and the same feelings. Moving here opened my world; it forced me to make new friends, take on greater responsibilities (things my mom would have ordinarily done for me), figure out what it meant to be independent, and take in every new experience that came my way.

As for my classes, they have definitely become more interesting as time progresses. Calculus and Math Programming are my favorite and most pleasing classes, but that might not be saying much, seeing that you could quite literally place me in any math class, regardless of whether or not I knew what was being taught, and I would be content. As for Welcome Math Majors, although it is not a typical math class where we would learn mathematics, we are discovering more about careers in the field of mathematics, as well as the path to get there through courses and internships during our time here at Geneseo. Anthropology (though I had my doubts initially), became a class that I don’t completely dread; I’ve found that the more I engage in discussions during the lectures, (along with taking “pretty” notes with my fancy pens), the class quickly turned into one where I could find an interesting new fact within the hour and fifteen minutes.

Of course, I couldn’t forget about Theatre Therapy for Veterans. I would love to make a joke about how “I can’t tell you about how bad the class is because my professor is reading this”, but sometimes my sarcasm doesn’t come off the page right. Instead, I won’t make a joke and simply tell you how I feel about the class, which is nothing but good. First, I find the fact that Professor Arena is a veteran herself helps connect to the reading. It is difficult to capture emotions by simply reading it on the pages, like in The Theater Of War: What Greek Tragedies Can Teach Us Today. However, as the book explains the impact of PTSD on veterans, Professor Arena also explains to us her personal experiences having served in the military. This allows me to form a deeper understanding of PTSD and how it affects real people who are right in front of my eyes, such as Professor Arena. Then further developing into how theatre can be an outlet for many when healing. I am fascinated by each class as I learn more and more about Greek tragedies through the books as well, and I still can’t fathom the fact that the stories, in a sense, are mirror images of the experiences soldiers go through today. Again, fascinating is the only word that comes to mind when thinking about the stories and their relation to war and soldiers today. Although I didn’t choose to be placed in this class, I am glad that I was, and I am looking forward to learning so much more throughout the last half of the semester.

Normalcy

To me, having a routine is fundamental. It is nice to be getting a routine down halfway through the semester. Since moving away from home, I haven’t felt normalcy until recently, now that I’ve gotten my routine down. It has felt as if my world was turned upside down. Between being homesick and missing my family to navigating a new campus, it seems as if everything is different. However, because it is a few weeks into the semester, my routine is starting to form, which has been helpful. I now know where places are located on campus and what to expect in each class. Each day of the week is now more familiar to me. I know that each Monday morning, I go to do my laundry, each Tuesday, I go to art history club, and Wednesday nights, I go to history club. A sense of normalcy is beginning to form. Getting to go home every few weekends is also helpful to me. I am grateful that I chose to stay close to home to see my family often. When deciding where I wanted to go for college, I felt conflicted because all my friends were going out of state. It made me feel less than because I was staying in New York, but I now know I made the right choice. 

All of my classes have been going well. I still enjoy going to art history class every Monday and Wednesday like I did at the beginning of the semester,  and took my first exam in the course. I was super nervous about it. However, I got a good grade on it since I have been paying attention during class and studying hard. I have enjoyed the class so much that I am considering adding art history as a minor. This would be a big decision since I am already minoring in museum studies and would then be double minoring. I plan to talk to my advisor soon to discuss this option. During my World of Vikings class, I struggled to figure out my in-class essays. I have learned that analyzing records and writing from the historian’s perspective differ from the work done in high school. However, my teachers have taught me so much. I better understand what historians look for and how they might look for it. For example, during class, we are usually given pictures of artifacts that historians found during an excavation. When looking at these artifacts, it is easier for me to realize what they might be used for and how they give clues as to what life was like during that time. 

During my Theater Therapy For Veterans writing seminar, I’ve learned how little I know about the topic. Through the readings and discussions with my professor, I have been taught how many veterans deal with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (P.T.S.D.). The course has opened my eyes to the topic and made me more aware of what veterans go through even after they come home. I have learned about topics such as survivor’s guilt, which is when veterans ask themselves why they came home and not others. I was unaware of my lack of knowledge. Throughout my schooling, I have been taught what P.T.S.D. was and how it affected those with it; however, I never grasped the severity of it until now-listening to Professor Arena talk about her service experience brought the topic to life for me. It is an important topic to discuss due to the number of people who deal with it, which I have learned is a large number. 

When I came to Geneseo, I was still determining if I would settle in. Since everything is so new, I continue to question whether or not I actually like it here. Considering that I am mostly quiet and not outgoing, it is difficult not to feel lonely when you are in a sea of strangers. Some days are better than others. When I walk around and see familiar faces or not become fearful of the unknown of a class, it makes me realize that while it will be a lot of hard work, I can do this. I can put in the effort and graduate from Geneseo.