The halfway point of a journey is the most significant step within the journey; it is the moment in which noticeable progress has been made. The moment in which one can breathe, step back, and acknowledge the growth that has occurred. Reaching my halfway point at Geneseo has been a process that went by so quickly; I can only define it as a blur. There is no sense to how quickly I have been able to weave myself an entirely new life. Not a single aspect of my hometown life has carried through to Geneseo. My friends have entirely new faces, my sleep schedule has been stretched to include more sleep in the morning, and my passion has shifted from theatre to rugby. At the halfway point of the first semester—meaning this is actually a 1/16th check-in over my four years of college—I have forged a new life for myself. This extreme change is not meant to be expressed as a negative event. Rather, the stark contrast between college and high school has vastly improved my mental health. My halfway point is marked with happiness and laughter, and I can only hope that the trend will continue.
The description of the halfway point of my courses is synonymous with the points of my social life. I have finally won my battle with crippling procrastination and have begun to not only schedule my assignments but commit to them as well. I cannot possibly count the number of times I put off an assignment until the last second or neglected the assignment in its entirety. Procrastination has been my handicap for the past 18 years, which I have finally managed to overcome. This single win has created an incredibly manageable course load; I have yet to find myself overwhelmed and anxiety-ridden. Unfortunately, I have not found most of my courses to be enjoyable. Many of my courses are set in a lecture style, and while I appreciate the approach, I learn more effectively through hands-on and discussion-based instruction. Therefore, I have needed to study longer to keep pace with the flow of information. It has been a difficult adjustment, but I know it will be necessary for my success. Overall, the courses are straightforward but have yet to open themselves up to be truly insightful and enjoyable.
Although my previous opinions of my courses have been starkly unenjoyable, this class specifically has been just the opposite. I have enjoyed the open conversations that occur on a near daily level, and this is the one class in which I feel I have connected with the professor. The format of this class has been the most convenient for my learning style, and I hope to find similarly arranged courses for future semesters. I have been able to connect deeply with many of the materials used within this course. The chapter “Heracles in Hospice” from The Theater of War by Brian Doerries was particularly compelling. It was exceptionally emotional to see the effects of Greek Tragedy in a setting to which I can relate. My aunt was put in hospice care in 2013, and I never visited her. I was so scared to see how much cancer had changed her kind face, so I didn’t go with the rest of my family to the hospice center. That guilt has lingered with me for over eight years, and it was relieving to have the guilt of losing someone in hospice care be so pronounced in literature. “Heracles in Hospice” lifted a small weight off my shoulders and alerted me that I was not alone, which was a truly refreshing feeling. Theatre Therapy for Veterans has been my favorite course due to its powerful messages, and I hope that I continue to find connections to the literature we read throughout this course.
By the end of the semester, I expect to have relearned my love for literature. I had forgotten the connections one can make to literature, and this course has pushed me back into reading. Furthermore, I hope that my lack of procrastination continues and equips me with the skills necessary to succeed in the next steps of my education.