Back on my feet

Coming to college has been one of the biggest and most dramatic changes in my life, and it still feels like I’m just getting into the swing of things as I find my place at Geneseo. At first, the adjustment was very difficult—I was alone and virtually friendless at the beginning of the semester, and felt generally unprepared for what was ahead. The first day of classes was the hardest for me, especially after having a fairly relaxed senior year due to Covid. I didn’t feel like I belonged at a college and maybe higher education wasn’t the path I truly wanted to take. Ultimately, I decided to give myself a chance here instead of passing judgment too soon, and so far I haven’t regretted that choice. At the end of the day, I come back to my dorm exhausted, nap a little, cry a little, tell my parents how much I miss them (a lot), and get back on my feet because I know that I still have much more to learn and experience. In fact, this reminds me of a song I’ve been enjoying recently, “Back on my feet” by Kimberose, which summarizes my first semester here at Geneseo pretty well: I did not hit the ground running, but instead took a long time to get my bearings and find a rhythm on campus that suits me. Even though it’s only October, I’ve had ups and downs, especially battling with my anxieties about the present and future. Between all the choices I have to make: how to manage my time, what classes to take next semester, and ultimately which major to choose, it’s hard not to feel overwhelmed with stress. One of the things I’ve had to constantly remind myself to do is not to forget to enjoy life, or as Henry David Thoreau put it, to “live life deliberately.” This mantra has kept me from feeling too depressed, as I often do this time of year when work starts to pile up. It has also helped me remember to enjoy my life as much as I can, from the beautiful sunsets to my favorite playlists. Despite the twists and the turns, I’m still keeping my head above water, and I feel that I’m doing much better mentally than I was on that first day of school.

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