First off, let me introduce myself. My name is Lily, short for Lillian, who was my great-grandma. Let’s start with some basic information: I’m a Scorpio, my favorite color is yellow, my favorite ice cream is soft serve twist in a dish with rainbow sprinkles, and I wouldn’t say I like ladybugs. Fall is my favorite season, not because of the pumpkin spice lattes, but because I love the crisp October air. The sun shining through the trees as the leaves fall, the anticipation of Christmas, and the smell of cinnamon and pumpkins everywhere… along with a Grande Pumpkin Cream Cold Brew from Starbucks in my hand. For hobbies and activities, I love crafting and sewing, as well as lettering with calligraphy and cursive, so basically anything that allows my creativity to flow and to take my mind off of everything stressful that could possibly consume my thoughts. I like country music and have a soft spot for a good Taylor Swift song.
I am a math major because I love numbers and find it one of the most thrilling yet, at times, frustrating subjects. Math is so practical in the real world, which makes my options of what I want to do as a career infinite. That said, I do not believe I would have made it to where I am today without my family. I love my family with all my heart; my mom and dad are my biggest supporters and push me to be my best while being there to catch me if I fall. My younger brother is my best friend; I’ve always had him by my side. Clearly, you can imagine the pain of having to move away from all that I’ve ever known and having to figure out how to be on my own in a matter of four hours of leaving home, moving in, going to dinner, and getting dropped back off at my dorm. Terrifying is the only word to describe how I felt during my first few days at Geneseo.
Due to all of the college talk in high school, the immense amount of emails the college sends you, and everything all these random adults tell you about how it was when they went to college, you would think you would be prepared for the transition. They tell you what to expect in classes, from professors, the workload, how many friends you’ll make, and how amazing the four years will be. However, what no one tells you is how much you will miss your family, how hard it will feel at times to make friends, how uncomfortable you will feel in the bathroom or taking a shower, the anxiety of trying to fall asleep at night, the pain of leaving your entire world behind, and the burdens you’ll feel at times when you realize you don’t have anything familiar to fall back into when life gets a little too overwhelming.
While my first few days here were stressful, scary, and overwhelming, after my classes began and I was able to find a routine, I can say that my anxiety has lowered. Once I made some friends from my orientation group and more friends from my classes, the fear of being alone and not making friends went away. Once I figured out where everything was in my building, the fear of getting lost and stranded was gone. Along with this, I finally felt at ease once I met all my professors and understood what the class would be like. Those classes are Calculus II, at a lovely 8:30 in the morning; Math Programming, which is so fun when I have absolutely no idea what I am doing most of the time; Welcome Math Majors, Cultural Anthropology (which I have not found to be all that exciting yet), and of course, Theatre Therapy for Veterans, my most interesting class.
If I’m completely honest, I wasn’t all too sure about this class when I saw it on my schedule, as I didn’t know what to expect. However, I will say now that I have met Professor Arena and have discovered all this class has to offer, I find that not only am I going to be able to learn more about becoming a stronger writer. I am learning more about the mental health of veterans and how theatre can be a form of healing for them. I find this class very engaging as someone who has struggled with my own mental health and has finally been able to reach out and get the help I needed after living alone with my thoughts- in the dark for so long. I am honored to learn from Professor Arena about PTSD and so many other aspects of veterans’ mental health and how theatre is an outlet for many on the treacherous journey to healing.