Headache

As midterms have come to an end, I find myself stressing even more. This transition towards the end of the year always gets me; I tend to get exhausted mentally and physically much quicker. Every day goes by in a blur. The changing of the seasons definitely does not help. Don’t get me wrong; I enjoy winter so so much. However, the gloomy skies combined with an earlier sunset and frigid winds dull my emotions, especially when walking to and from class on those god-awful hills.

My classes are going ok – I had a bit of a hiccup, though. Unfortunately, I was struck by a pretty heavy cold. Thanks to my ever-so-reliable immune system, I was out for a week and a half. I had to ride out a five-day fever. What an absolute nightmare. Making up all that work was a royal pain and so incredibly stressful. Luckily, I avoided drowning in all that work, but man, that was so hard. I never want to go through that again, but knowing how much my body hates me, I probably will end up getting sick again.

I’m thankful for the fact that Therapy for Veterans is such a doable course. Having a class that is easily accessible is a genuine blessing. I thank Professor Arena for making this course easy to make up while out. It really does make my life easier.

My friends have been such a great support system as the semester progresses. Anywhere from small vent sessions to homework groups, they’ve been a massive help in pushing through this semester. My mental health would’ve deteriorated at this point, but thanks to them, I’m able to be relatively stable as finals loom over.

Speaking of finals- I’m absolutely dreading them. I tend to do this thing where I psych myself out to the point where I end up doing poorly on my finals, even though I’m perfectly capable of acing them. It’s such an awful habit, and I’m trying to break it. From this point forward, the goal is simply to believe in myself and trust in my abilities. You made it this far, Riddhi; don’t undermine that.

I think everyone can use that reminder. To whoever is reading this, you got this! I believe in you! You are completely capable of finishing this semester and passing your finals. I hope that classes and finals progress smoothly for all of us. The semester is almost over. Hang in there!

Halfway point

At long last, we finally made it halfway through the semester! This semester has been a real doozy, to say the least. A lot has occurred throughout this short amount of time, ranging from getting sick, making new friends, dying over midterms, and making impulsive decisions that are now leading me to another country next semester. What a rollercoaster.

Beginning with this course specifically, it’s actually one of my best classes. I’m not struggling in comparison to my other classes. The class and the material being taught is not only easy to digest, but it’s fascinating! Like, I genuinely enjoy coming to class and taking in the material we learn every day. Professor Arena’s teaching style also aids in this immensely; the way she teaches connects with students and livens up the classroom. There’s never a dull moment in the class, which I appreciate. I usually do not do well in courses that don’t pique my interest in some way, shape, or form. However, my grades in this class are very high, and I’m genuinely enjoying this course, which is an excellent indicator of how delightful I find it.

As stated in my previous blog, I am not a first-year student. However, I’m treating this semester as my first semester at Geneseo due to COVID hindering my first two semesters. In comparison, I’m doing much better than I did in the middle of my actual first semester. My grades are being kept up with, and I’m procrastinating much less. I’m also out more due to my classes being in-person. I spend most of my time in Doty Hall at the Office of Diversity and Equity, where I work. The space is quite charming; I highly recommend stopping by if you can. I could connect with my coworkers more due to more frequent contact. We do many things; go out for lunch, listen to my music (since I’m the official work DJ), rant, cry – as coworkers do. It’s a safe space for me, something I was not able to have last semester. I appreciate them and everyone in the office with my entire being.

Impulsive decisions have also ruled almost all of this semester. I bought things to feed into my collections, which I probably shouldn’t have, but oh well. I dyed my hair as well (against my parents’ wishes, of course).

Also, I’m moving to South Korea next semester. Surprise! I decided to apply to the study-abroad program impulsive and, well, yeah. Now I’m here. It took a bit to convince my parents, but I got through to them. I have felt so incredibly disconnected from my Korean identity. My parents tried their best to immerse me in the culture, but it just was never enough. This opportunity allows me to finally explore a part of my heritage that I have been lacking. I’m beyond excited about this journey. I’m especially looking forward to meeting the friends and family I could only talk through a screen. The planning and paperwork going into this are driving me absolutely bonkers, but my giddiness overrides that anxiety (for now). I’m so glad I made this decision; I usually avoid self-indulgent choices due to a personal complex, but thank goodness I pulled through with this one. I am so incredibly grateful for this opportunity, and I plan to make the most of it!

If I could summarize the contents of this semester in one word, I’d choose appreciation. I’m just so thankful for all the things and experiences this semester has bestowed upon me. At this point of the semester last year, I was miserable. Classwork was piling up, I barely interacted with anyone, and my mental health was a burning pile of trash. I’m doing much better this semester. I’m still facing hiccups, but overall, I’m satisfied with the progress I’ve made. I genuinely feel that I have grown as a person – my work ethic is pretty good, I interact with plenty of people, and I love my job (a rare statement). I expect the rest of this semester to go on like this, maybe with some improvements as well. I hope that you all are also having some positive experiences. If not, I am manifesting it for all of you! Hang in there; we’re almost done!

Welcome to Geneseo (sort of)

Hello to everyone reading this! I would like to apologize in advance, for the lack of a better term, the mess you are about to encounter. I’m somewhat of a scatter-brain, and this will reflect in my writing. Hi! I’m Riddhi Patel, a sophomore here at Geneseo. I am a Political Science major and with a minor in Asian Studies. I come from a family of immigrants, one who prides themselves on being incredibly Asian. I speak five languages and am learning my sixth one! I am an avid collector of many things, my most extensive collection being glass animals/figurines. I’m vegetarian and have a huge soft spot for bell peppers.

I did not intend to go to Geneseo at all. By complete chance, I ended up here; I did eeny-meanie-miny-mo with the colleges I got accepted into, and it just happened to land on Geneseo. I started Fall of 2020, but as everyone knows, my first semester here was not a typical “first semester” (thank you, COVID). Taking classes online and barely being on campus made my first two semesters here feel unreal. However, I’m treating this semester as my first actual semester here at Geneseo. This semester is going reasonably well! I’m making new friends, and my work-study job is finally in-person, which is nice. I finally get to walk around campus more. My workload is all over the place, but that is nothing new. The only major issue I’ve been having is with the food on campus; the new meal plan is a significant pain, and I wish the food system was like last year. Aside from the usual stress and this wonky meal plan, things are going pretty ok.

Lastly, I wanted to share that I was not supposed to be in this class; my original course was canceled, and I was placed here. I expected this class to be much more rigorous and challenging, but that is not the case. The class workload is very doable, and the atmosphere is fun! I did not expect this class to be as enjoyable as it turned out to be. I am pleasantly surprised. I am hoping the rest of the semester goes along on this note. I am looking forward to it!